People say you know, when you fall in love, and its the best feeling you could ever feel or come across with,when we see the other person we feel butterflies in our stomach,holding their hands makes your heart pound crazily.Love is more than that.Its not always like a pretty garden of roses,it is also full of thorns.
It’s funny how every time we find a person who tends to understand us and treat us well and we start believing its love.Until one day when either of us gets tired or more commonly we term it as “The spark is not here anymore”.I never understand how could you unlove a person,fall out of love, because when you love truly,you see past the smile the other person puts on,you see how weird ,how imperfect and how bad a person can be but still you love them , you still look into their eyes and you start losing yourself in them.How can all of these end?How can the other person stop being themselves?How can you stop loving the other person while the person is and will always remain the person you loved?
We don’t go walking into the streets looking out for love, we come across it at the most unexpected time and with the unexpected person.We like so many people, date them,love them, but when love is in its purest form it lasts,but if it doesn’t that does not mean the love was not true but this might have not been the ONE LOVE which happens to people at certain point in their lives.We fall in love with a person and we don’t expect them to love us back*though we keep on hoping for it*, we keep loving them with all the love we have.No matter with whom we end up, no other person can replace the love we have for this person,and when this person loves us back,OMG! we can’t expect anything else which would feel better.
I met him through a common friend on Facebook in 2014, we texted for hours, talked about tons of things,I felt like I could talk to him about anything, put down my walls for him, I felt he was different from what experiences I had in the past.One year passed, we had our share of fights, I was too naive to see behind everything he faked.Yes,he did.He cheated on me.I didn’t knew how to accept that.I left.Only to feel the worst I can ever feel,I self-harmed,i stopped being around people,I stopped believing in myself.Did he break me?No, he didn’t,he did much worse,he crushed me totally. I had always read about “Happy Endings” all my life,but not everything had to end on a happy note.I blamed myself for his mistakes,the things I wasn’t responsible for.I couldn’t forgive myself for letting him go, not realizing that one at fault was him.Although I avoided him,I kept a look at him.I did love him.
A year later*I dated a couple of guys but never found myself complete* we reconciled again on July 18,2016, but this time not for once I felt him acting cold, I could feel true affection,care and warmth.Since then I have seen myself in him.Words fall short if I try to explain how happy I’ve been.Its not a fairytale kind of relationship.We fight, and by fight I don’t mean small arguments,we have major fights but the better side is how fast we fall back together,it isn’t the times when we look our best and can’t stop staring at each other, it’s when we are completely a mess but still we find each other the most attractive and adorable person ever, the phone calls when we sound so good and cute aren’t the best ones, its our broken voices from the morning which makes us fall in love more every second.
I have never been a self confident person, I never found myself beautiful,I felt insecure about the way my body looks.Everyone of us are scared of being ridiculed for not being good enough for our respective partners.Believe me when you find the right person, they will look at you like they can’t see anybody else,its only you that have mesmerized them.So did he.He made me start loving myself for the person I am, he made me appreciate myself,he doesn’t let me fall, when people are bad to me he doesn’t let me feel down.He is imperfectly perfect the way he is.For the first few months, I still couldn’t trust him.But he earned it.I trust him completely now.
But like every rose has its thorn even he has his share of flaws, but that is him.I accepted him for the way he is, the way he accepted me.
He has not always been on the bright side,not always been the angelic kind of person that he is now, he has had his period of being shady, he had been the kind of devil that walks around breaking hearts and bringing down people.I was one of them until he changed.Changed for good.
I read this quote once,that said “You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world…but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices.”
― John Green,
I chose him,I still can’t believe it,but I did.And if this time I get hurt I would still take it as a privilege to have had ended things with him on a better note than our past.
I fall in love with him every day,every minute.And by the looks of it I can proudly say I am love with one of the most beautiful hearts.Now that I know him I know why was he a certain way in his past.He had his insecurities, just like I did,which made him a person what he never was.He always wanted a person who would love him for what he is and not what he showed he was,and maybe this is why he loves me now. 🙂 He loves the way no one did,listens to me the way no one tries to, he broke my walls helping me face things I feared.
I don’t think we are going to stop loving each other for the bad we have been or the flaws we have.We complete each other.And today after our relationship completed a year, I am sure we got a long way to go on.He changed me,made me believe in love again and today the reason I am happy and smiling is because I know he has got my back and he won’t let me fall.And oh yes,he asked me to marry him.I said YES!! *duh! obviously*.He wants to get engaged soon*we didn’t because we are in a long distance relationship*.
I am so lucky to love him.He doesn’t realize how perfect I find him. ❤
I really hope all of you reading this whether seperated or single find someone you can’t live without,one who completes you,one who is ready to make sacrifices and grow with you.I am certain you will find that person, but first love yourself,self-love is the most important love.
And all those pretty lil souls who are in love already, I really wish that you stay in love forever,loving each other ,annoying them and supporting them throughout the thick and thin.
“True love doesn’t come to you it has to be inside you.” ~Julia Roberts
Keep smiling 🙂 Lots of Love ❤ xx
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